Monday, December 7, 2015

Blog #100. Recovering daily



Life has its own weird way of changing who we once were. What we thought was important. What are lives are in one moment... can be change in an instant.  No notice. No fair warning. No way of really being able to understand how much things will change and how strong you must be to survive the changes. 

I haven't posted in a very long time. I've been feeling so bad. I ended up having half of my liver resected in July and since then it's been one thing after another trying to get through and overcome to get myself back to somewhat of a normal being that I once was. I am in baby steps mode right now. There is no other choice because I've lost lost much weight, muscle, and strength.  

My life has forever been changed. The last 22 months has been rough. I've been through so much. I've overcome when I wasn't sure that I was going to be able to. I've had so much love, support, and prayers from some of the most amazing people! I am so grateful for those things. Those things that no amount of money can buy no matter how much money you have! I use to think that what made me successful in my life was my career. The car I drive. The clothes I wore. I thought material things meant more than anything and honestly I admit....I was wrong!!! 

Life is about the love you share. The friendships and memories you make. The precious moments like while I'm sick laying in bed I'm making Christmas wreaths and listening to Christmas music with a friend. It's getting a gift from a friend with a card that has messages from 2 young girls telling me what an inspiration me and my fight has been in their lives. Those are things that melt my heart. My heart is full of love and happiness even in the moments that I'm hurting I'm just grateful for another day and another chance to continue my life and that the blessing we all should be thankful for at one point or another in our lives. 

I'm going to try my best to post more blogs. I know that's how so many people keep up with me and my journey. 

I hope through my fight and as through the eyes of some precious young girls I can show myself and the world that no matter what you face in life. No matter how hard it gets. How much easier it would be to just give in and give up that the fight comes from within. No one else in the world can make you fight its a choice individually. I'm fighting. I'm fighting to see many more years. Make so many more memories and to share in a world that often needs a simple reminder of how simple happiness can be if we allow it.  In this season of Christmas look past the gifts and remember to make the memories that will last a lifetime. You forget the presents you got but you won't forget the memories you make. Sometimes a simple moment can be one of your greatest memories one day.  

I appreciate your love and support. Without you all I couldn't make it through.