Blog #20 "The Things you don't even think about dealing with cancer"

The Things that you don't even think about......

It's day 6 of my treatment. I get up earlier on the days I have treatment.. so I can get into the office, work a few hours and then hit the road to The Genesis Center, in Cumming GA. The distance between my office and The Genesis Center is about 35 miles one way. It takes me an hour to get there. I am usually there getting treatment an hour and a half, and I can't eat before treatments.. so, I am starving, and  I have to eat before going back to work, and then I have another hour drive back to the office. I generally leave the office between 8:30 or 9:00 and get back anywhere 1:00 and 1:30. Come back to the office and do all the things I had left over from the day before, and all the new things I added to my to do list while I was at treatment. 

I get off, I have my child and my grandson most days at my house. Evan has games on Tuesday and Saturday with practice on Thursday nights. The thing about being sick for me is... I just don't have the time to be sick. I am running from sun up to sun down like everyone else is. 

Cancer doesn't stop your life it complicates it.. It causes stresses that you don't even consider looking in from the outside. Sometimes, I come home and I just get into the bed and lay there. I want to relax but ...I hear the kids screaming and crying down the hall because so and so took so and so from so and so. Ugh! I just wish I could explain that I need to rest, I need them to be on their best behavior and it seems since I  have found out that I have cancer it's even more complicated at home with these two. 

I am doing my best to say calm and at a peaceful place but who could be at a peaceful place when everything in their life is so overwhelming?  I have a full time job that requires a lot of me, and I have been told by many people, just slow down. The one thing that some people can not understand is I love my job, I love my customers, and doing this or any job makes me happy. It fulfills me. I have always been a workaholic and overachiever and cancer will not take that away from me,EVER! 

I just want everyone to know that as happy as I am that things are going in the right direction for me, it's hard to give up 3-4 hours 3 days a week to go and get treatment. It isn't the place I want to be. I wish I didn't have to go, but because I have cancer and I have chosen this right path for me, I must do some things I don't want to to to get back and overcome this monster I have living inside of me. 

I have some amazing friends that come and sit with me while I am having treatment .. I love the company and love that it makes the time seem to go by so much faster, and its' awesome catching up with some people that I have not seen in a very long time.  It makes me happy and makes the times I have to be there more bearable. 

I hate complaining about anything but ... I have that right.  I am just grateful that I don't work at a corporate office because I think my choices of treatments would be more limited than the choices I have now in being self employed! The positive in all of this! 

I am getting better. I just want things to continue this way. I shared all of this today to show you how tough this is for me and all the adjustments to my life I have to make to make this all possible and how complaining isn't going to change anything. Just suck it up and deal with it!!! 

I was about to post this and I see this post on my wall from an old high school friend and thought I would share with you all...... It made me laugh... 


So sick of people complaining about their day or their commute then seeing people dealing with serious issues. So before you post your daily bitch, look at your life compared to what others are going through ( Christy Hicks and Carla Brannon Poe) and so many others and decide if life is that hard it or you are a Whiney sissy that needs to be happy with what you have and shut up.